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The Lesser Known Expense of Self Publishing – the Emotional One

This week, Some Nerd Girl opened its virtual doors to all self-published writers in the way of a free review opportunity. As a self-published author myself, this is kind of near-and-dear to me. These days, there’s generally three ways to get published:

  • Self Publish
  • Publish via a small / medium press
  • Get picked up by a major publishing company

There are pros and cons to each one of these – I can’t speak to the last two bullet points, but I can very much attest to the first.

I have been writing since the age of 13 – now 29, this whole self-publishing thing is a brand new ballgame. I published my first book in March of 2015 – a complete rookie to the process. I used the power of the internet to learn the ropes. I joined some self publishing online communities and I ran, full force, towards my goal.

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Weeee! [Art by z-studios]
It wasn’t quite like running straight into a wall, but I learned running full-force at something like self-publishing was not the best approach. In the end, I accomplished my goal, but there was still a lot I hadn’t done.

Like made an online presence or market myself or my book. Just two small things that are, oh, what is that? Completely essential to your success? Balls.

Let me back up for a minute before I really dig into that point. There are a lot of known expenses when you self publish. Off of the top of my head, they are, as follows:

  • Editing / Proofreading
  • Cover Design
  • Website Domains
  • Website builders
    • Maybe even a web designer (for the fancy types with extra cash)
  • Print copies to provide visuals to possible local readers
  • Marketing (Facebook, Goodreads, Amazon, BookBub)
  • The risky (and IMO shady) paid review

One expense that we don’t really talk about is this one:

The putting yourself out there, naked and afraid, emotional expense

As I mentioned, I ran as fast as I could to market with my first book, Children of the Fallen. I made a lot of mistakes, and one of them was not understanding that the world was not waiting for my book. The world didn’t know about my book. They didn’t really care about my book. It was my job to make them care.

My job.

Introverted, loves-to-write-alone-by-myself-in-a-quiet-room-for-fun, me.

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Gulp.

And so, I made some attempts. I bought some Facebook advertising services (why this made sense, I have no idea), and I posted on Reddit a bunch.

And got caught in spam filters a bunch.

And told by moderators a bunch that self-promotion was a no-no.

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The only places that were safe for self promotion were places that were 100% dedicated to self promotion, where the only people subscribed were only interested in promoting their own thing.

Well, crap.

I tried another approach – I began to submit my book for reviews. And got turned down all but once. I saw approximately zero difference in sales after my review ran. That is to say; none. None sales.

I attended self published panels (that turned out to be mostly bickering), and workshops where most folks there were scratching their heads the same as me when it came to building a readership.

So I went back to the drawing board and started watching what amounted to self-help videos. One of them recommended publishing more books, then offering some for free in order to build a loyal readership.

That’s cool, bro. Only a few problems with that – getting a book to market, the RIGHT away… it ain’t cheap. If I had a couple grand to plop down on each venture, I’d feel better about it. Quality editing alone is enough to make my bank account clutch its purse. The other problem is allocating the time to write multiple drafts to even get to the editing process.

Don’t get me wrong; this IS a good plan. And I will be utilizing it, but it’s a slow process. And I don’t like slow. I like to run. Like Forrest Gump, if you will.

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The cold reality of the situation is that we live in a world, and on an internet, that rather dislikes self-promotion.

It’s ironic, and I would be amused by it if it weren’t so real for me. Who will promote me, if not me? Do you see the paradox here, grumpy moderators?

I went a self-publishing route in part to avoid the crushing, drawn out rejection process that is querying major publishers. Now I understand the process is basically reversed for self-publishing – a quick start up, and then the real work starts. The emotional work of being a constant advocate for yourself – which is an odd exercise. And, again, not entirely welcomed with a warm embrace by people who are not your friends and family.

And I get it; nobody wants a flood of people crying for them to buy their book (not even me!). And I don’t really have a solution – other than to say I know in my gut there is a way for us self-published authors to band together in order to devise a source for interested readers to have a chance to find us. I’m going to let that one simmer for a while – to be continued, if you will.

I think step one is acknowledging that there is an emotional expense to self publishing. And yes, true – for all publishing. We are all human, and we all doubt ourselves (severely at times – we are writers, after all). But in a small or large press situation, you will usually have some backing. Some team of people helping you to achieve your goals. For the self-pub crowd, it’s us, our friends and our family that keep us going. We believe in our stories enough to put them out there – naked and afraid – for your approval.

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Writers are people, too. And we want to be loved.

It’s kind of nerve wracking.

But we’re going to keep going. Because some stories can’t be contained, and these running shoes are barely worn out!


Eve2Eve is the founder of Some Nerd Girl and the author of urban fantasy novel Children of the Fallen and science fiction novel Colony One. She has been writing since the age of 13 and has been flying her nerd flag for the past 16 years. Fandoms include Star Wars, Star Trek and Battlestar Galactica. Basically if it has ‘star’ in it, she’ll give it a shot. You can visit her website at www.somenerdgirl.com.

Wrapping up NaNoWriMo: All of the Feelings!

If you have an exhausted-but-still-happy-looking friend, coworker or family member in your life, chances are they just completed a grueling month of frantic writing. They have experienced moments of utter despair, creative highs, possible crying fits in solidarity with their characters and much, much more.

I am within these ranks, having finished my novel on November 29th – and while this will be my 9th novel written via NaNoWriMo, the feeling of finishing is indescribably delicious and delightful. It is second only to finishing a final draft (If you’ve never done this, you need to. The creative high is out of this world!).

It is difficult to explain the FEELING of NaNo, so I’m not going to. I’m going to visually display the various emotions associated with this month (that many of us have, successfully if not narrowly just survived).

The It-Sounded-Good-At-The-Time feeling

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I’ve made a terrible mistake!

This most commonly occurs when you haven’t slept in 20 hours, write feverishly, sure of your brilliance only to sit down the next day for a writing session to find out you cannot possibly write yourself out of this mess.

The emotional wreck because 50,000 words might as well be the same as climbing that staircase from Ace Ventura Nature Calls feeling

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Ayup. This is gonna take a while…

Coming back down with that slinky is so much more fun.

The I-Just-Wrote-A-Line-That-Cracked-Me-Up, and then realized I didn’t have anyone to brag to feeling

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Good job, me!

Self amusement is not just about delirium! Sometimes it really is good!

The Eye-of-the-Tiger moment of writing so much you broke the daily limit three times over feeling!

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Dean is equal parts hilarious and terrifying when singing this song…

So boss.

The being so tired but pushing through anyway feeling

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This is fine. I am fine. All there is is writing.

It’s all gonna be worth it at 50k!

Not understanding why your characters won’t cooperate feeling

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Why, MC, why?!

I can’t work with these people!

The feeling of guilt as you once again hide away from family, friends and obligations to write feeling

 

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Ignore the blood on his collar. That is totally unrelated. Mostly. I think.

Because this is important, damnit!

Being filled with joy and sadness as your novel comes to an end

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We have been through so much together!

At the end of the day, NaNo takes us through some of our highest highs and our lowest lows when it comes to personal challenges. This is universal across all writers – young and old, new and experienced. We’re all in this together, we all feel a lot of the same things, we all push ourselves in similar ways and it’s a unique experience that should be proudly worn as a badge of honor.

As we wrapped up this NaNo year, many looked on in astonishment at the very first novel they had ever created. Others honed their craft and built on the years of experience they have put into the craft. In the end, we’re all winners for stepping up to the plate.

So here’s to you, fellow Wrimo, you are awesomely tenacious and genuinely courageous! Embrace all of the feelings of NaNo!


Eve2Eve is the founder of Some Nerd Girl and the author of urban fantasy novel Children of the Fallen and science fiction novel Colony One. She has been writing since the age of 13 and has been flying her nerd flag for the past 16 years. Fandoms include Star Wars, Star Trek and Battlestar Galactica. Basically if it has ‘star’ in it, she’ll give it a shot. You can visit her website at www.somenerdgirl.com.

What are these Nerd Girls thankful for this year?

We’re thankful that…

SyFy is Finally Getting Back to Its Roots

This year, we got a glimpse of the fact SyFy is ready and willing to get back to producing and airing the genre of its namesake (only not butchering it with unnecessary y’s). This is excellent news for us BSG die-hards who are desperate for some space drama and other quality programming. We at SNG are VERY thankful for this turn of events.

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If you’re not up to speed on some of the current and future programming you can look forward to, here’s the short list:

  • Killjoys
  • The Expanse
  • Helix
  • 12 Monkeys
  • Children’s End

The BBC announcing it will do justice to the His Dark Material series

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Despite phenomenal casting (Star Wars Prequels, anyone?), the film adaptation of The Golden Compass left much to be desired. BBC to the rescue! The same people who brought us Red Dwarf, an adaptation of Neverwhere and Sherlock are going to do their best to bring His Dark Materials to life. Thank goodness the budget seems to have been worked out since Red Dwarf and Neverwhere – we have high hopes and we are soooo thankful for this news!

The Martian did not let down the science nerds of the group

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I’ll be damned. You did it, Matt!

Anytime there is a film set in the ‘near future’ involving science, the science nerds of our troupe cringe in a somewhat optimistic way. We want it to be good, we want it to be realistic, and we also really hope films like this inspire interest in space travel and the sciences that help us get there and figure out stuff once we get to where we’re going. We’re thankful The Martian turned out to be as good as we all hoped!

New Horizons Did Not Disappoint

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Everyone fell in love with Pluto this year, and that warms our hearts here at SNG! More than that, the hard work of some very dedicated and intelligent individuals bore fruit – pretty much the pinnacle of every scientist’s hopes and aspirations. When missions take years or decades to achieve, their success is that much sweeter!

Perfect Timing that is finishing a book in a series only to have the next one come out soon after is a thing

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If we’re lucky, we know the joy that perfect timing is when it comes to a good book or TV series – Some Nerd Girl Tessa recently experienced this with Ancillary Mercy. Tell us about when you experienced this miracle of timing in the comments!

Fury Road showed up for the ladies, and people were OK with it!

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Between Furiosa showing Mad Max the ropes, the Immortan’s ‘wives’ taking the fate of their lives into their own hands, and the women of the Green Place, this movie was a cinematic breath of fresh air when it comes to the portrayal of women. SNG couldn’t be more thankful for the dynamic portrayal of multiple female roles – we can only hope for more in the coming years!

You’re Never Weird On the Internet (Almost) reaffirms we’re all in this together!

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We plan on doing a whole piece on how relatable this Felicia Day book is. Until then, suffice to say, Day’s words were beyond welcome as her stories helped a LOT of us realize we are not alone in our experiences growing up and our current places in life. Many of us were inspired, others comforted, and all amused!

Moral support – in particular, with our Fallout 4 problem addiction was readily available

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Some Nerd Girl Heather reports requiring moral support to get through Fallout 4, which is equal parts amazing and scary! Maybe this is a new marketing strategy to make gamming more about community? Like, in person community. That’d be novel, eh?

Jessica Jones is a thing

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Finally, a lady gets some super hero digital content action! Granted, it’s on NetFlix and not the big screen, but we NetFlix addicts do not really consider this to be a bad thing. We’re thankful for this opportunity to see a lady featured as a superhero and look forward to seeing where they go with it!

MOAR HARRY POTTER!

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Even if it is in play-form. Now we, as adults, can enjoy an off-shoot of our favorite childhood books and still feel all cultured and junk!

Obviously; we get a new Star Wars this year. AND IT LOOKS GOOD

We’re thankful that the Star Wars: The Force Awakens trailers are making us cry. In a good way. They’re tears of absolute joy. Don’t F(*! this up, JJ.

Also, we’re hoping this new era of cinema for women will also dovetail into some decent merchandise and clothing for women. I AM LOOKING AT YOU TARGET!


Eve2Eve is the founder of Some Nerd Girl and the author of urban fantasy novel Children of the Fallen and science fiction novel Colony One. She has been writing since the age of 13 and has been flying her nerd flag for the past 16 years. Fandoms include Star Wars, Star Trek and Battlestar Galactica. Basically if it has ‘star’ in it, she’ll give it a shot. You can visit her website at www.somenerdgirl.com.

15 NaNoWriMo Writing and Acheivement Badges That Don’t Exist But Should

National Novel Writing Month writing badges are a relatively new addition to the NaNoWriMo community, and they’re pretty neat in terms of motivation and feeling a sense of achievement. I couldn’t help but feel like there were some missed opportunities, however – so I recently mined reddit’s NaNoWriMo community for ideas on what badges are needed to fill in the gaps. Here are just are just a handful that we came up with!


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1. The Thanks To Sleep Deprivation, I Can Sleep Literally Anywhere Now! badge

Most folks who participate in NaNo struggle with sleep and often have a love-hate relationship with it. Love it when it happens, hate that it takes away from perfectly good free time we could be writing! Now there is an added bonus, which is adaptability! Congratulations, we are probably building some mutant race that is less reliant on sleep 100 years from now!


2. The Master Multitasker. You Did It All. Literally. How?! YouDidItAllbadge

You have kids, a job, a spouse, pets, friends who want to spend time with you (selfish!), side projects, front projects, project projects. You’re insane. And should probably run for President or Dictator or something. I don’t have much to say about this badge because I literally have no idea how you do it.

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3. The You Sacrifice Everything In The Month Of November, Becoming the Quintessential ‘Lone Wolf’ For the Sake of Success! badgeLoneWolf

This is the multitasker’s natural enemy. The Lone Wolf (I have to admit that I fall into this category), understands their limitations when it comes to focus and dedication. It is for this reason they must, regrettably, cut you out of their life for up to 30 days – BUT – it might not take that long. In fact, the more you leave me alone, the more likely you are to see me later in the month!


4. The You (somehow) Survived A Critical Failure And Lost All Your Progress At Least Once And Still Managed To Recover! badgeCrashOverride

Saving and saving your work often is not really going to help you out if your computer chooses the month of November to Bite the Big One. Nor will it un-corupt your text file should you be so unfortunate to be in such a situation. HOWEVER, you, proud badge wearer, were not deterred. Okay, maybe you were for a little bit. Crying is perfectly acceptable in this kind of situation. But instead of giving up, you trudged forward and you know what, you probably wrote a better story because of it. Good on you!


5. The You Have Been Burned In The Past So Now You Have 15 Back Up Plans and Multiple Redundancies For Your Precious Novel! badgeFileHoarder

There is a very good chance that you earned badge #4 in a previous year. For this reason, you do not f%#* around! You are the model Wrimo who has mastered Google Docs, has more back up USB drives than James Bond, and have figured out how to automate emailing your work to yourself as you write it. You are also the file-backup-or-else apostle, spreading the good word to anyone who will listen.


6. The Everybody In Your Home Town Knows About NaNoWriMo Because Of You, You Eager Beaver! badgeEagerBeaver

Hey, guess what? You do an awesome, amazing thing every year that makes you feel really good and creative and fulfilled. And you want the world to know! You get this badge because there is nothing that will squash your passion for NaNoWriMo and telling literally anyone who will listen about it, and… perhaps most importantly… what you are writing this year.


7. The You Have Somehow Managed to Write 10,000+ Words Without Once, I Repeat Once, Actually Describing Your Main Character! badgeRorschach

I am not sure this badge is one you always want. I mean, I guess it really depends on your story. Are you purposely keeping this a mystery? Are you going to get around to it when you can feel your fingers again? I bet you could get a good 100 words or so out of at least telling us what color hair they have and if they are cross-eyed or not. I’m sure you’ll get around to it eventually! (Just please don’t spend two chapters describing a door)


8. The You Are No Longer In Control Of Your Characters And They Are Now Completely Off Script, But Hey, It Is Generating A TON of Word Count! badgeCharactersInControl

I have to imagine we have all felt this pain at some point. Your character wanders out of the scene out of boredom or HEY! there is something shiny over there! Let’s go look at IT! This can be frustrating under normal circumstances, but when it comes to NaNoWriMo, I highly encourage you to just go with it and wear this badge with pride. So what if you might need to be committed later…?


9. The Writer UNBLOCKED! badgeWriterUNBlocked

This badge is earned by those writers who hit a wall. A tall wall. A thick one. A wall made of dead Persians – you know, the usual kinds of walls. And these writers struggle, and struggle, and then it happens. The block breaks apart and you suddenly know what needs to happen! Cue the joy, cue the relief, and cue earning this badge for sticking with it and working out the kinks!


10. The There Is No Way This Is Going To Work, Proceed With Operation Nuke The Site From Orbit! badgeNukeFromOrbit

Unlike the Writer Unblocked badge, this is a wholesale acknowledgement and acceptance of the fact the story you started with is just not going to work. You’re not feeling it, your characters are cardboard, it’s a struggle to write every word. This badge if for those people who nuke their first idea and then proceed to run with another, kicking ass and taking names all along the way!


11. The I-Talked-A-Fellow-Wrimo-Off-The-Ledge! badgeTalkOffLedge

This badge is for all those generous souls who take time out of their writing to help talk a friend, writing buddy or even a random Wrimo off the ledge – be it from having an existential crisis, wanting to edit prematurely, or give up altogether. These badge holders are a big part of what makes NaNoWriMo so special – we have built a community that welcomes every level of writer, along with the entire spectrum of ambition levels – from overachiever to Master Procrastinator. We all support each other in our own way, and none is more important than you, Mr. Ledge-Talker-Off’er. Keep telling people to ‘Hang In There!’

12. The, Guess What? You Get To Write A Novel AND Feel Like Your Face Is Melting Off! badgeNovemberIllness

If you do NaNo long enough, this is bound to be your fate eventually. You spend all of October pumped and ready to go, and then BAM, you start sniffling. At first, there is denial – I’m fine, I swear. It’s just allergies or something. And then the sneezing starts, and before you know it, you’re at that stage of illness that puts you thisclose to making a deal with the devil to get better. Oh, and you’re still slogging through putting words on paper, but you are DEDICATED! And my, what interesting chapters you wrote under the influence of cold meds. This badge is for all those who persevere during illness in November!


13. The This Is Gonna Be a Photo Finish, Pray To Your Gods if You Got ‘Em! badgeLastMinuteWinner

Set Condition 1 throughout the ship! It is the last godsdamn day and you are SO CLOSE! You can’t write until your second-shift job releases you from their evil clutches and then it’s a mad dash to 50,000 words before midnight local time. This badge is for the people who MAKE IT HAPPEN when it’s down to the wire and all hope seems to be lost. Nope, not today, November. Not today.


14. The I Don’t Even Know What Is Real Anymore! badgeExistentialCrisis

When you sit down and decide to dedicate hours to pouring out your heart and soul until you reach a goal of a ridiculous amount of words, there are going to be times where you question reality. Am I Real? What does it mean to be real? Am I God? Do my characters live? What days is it? And where am I while I’m asking all these pertinent questions… It is a serious drag when you go through this existential, transcendental experience and still have to find time to do laundry before work on Monday. Take this badge, you earned it!


15. The I… I Did A Thing. I Actually Did It! badgeIdidathing

Last, and absolutely not least, is this astonishment badge for actually doing the thing you set out to do. You may think think this is just for first-timers, but you’d be wrong. Every time you accomplish this task, you should be proud and a little astonished of yourself. You, a busy human being who has a life completely apart from writing, told a story that was worth writing. You accomplished something that is going to last forever – that story is now fact, and YOU DID IT. You made the thing! Congratulations! Be astonished with yourself!!


Eve2Eve is the founder of Some Nerd Girl and the author of urban fantasy novel Children of the Fallen and science fiction novel Colony One. She has been writing since the age of 13 and has been flying her nerd flag for the past 16 years. Fandoms include Star Wars, Star Trek and Battlestar Galactica. Basically if it has ‘star’ in it, she’ll give it a shot. You can visit her website at www.somenerdgirl.com. And she really wishes this whole article counted towards her Word Count…

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